love/hate (really really dislike)

I hate using the word hate. It really just sounds plain mean. I am trying to be nicer and be optimistic about life but... I really want to make some complaints. So... I had this idea. Maybe if I write down things that bug me and things that make me happy then there would kind of be a balance. Balance in life is good so here I go.

I really really dislike it when people declare their love for their boyfriend/girlfriend via facebook. If I am ever guilty of this, then I give everyone permission to slap me.

I love the carpool lane and the invention of FASTRAK. Every time I drive home from working in San Diego I am still stunned that more people don't invest in a fastrak. People... time is money!

I really really dislike walking down the pet food aisle. The smell makes me want to vomit. If I go with people to the store and they walk down the pet aisle, I will walk down the neighboring aisle and wait for them at the end. I try to hide my being dramatic, but then they will ask me where I went and I have to tell them what my deal is and then I look like a drama queen. Awesome.

I love California and I don't want to go back to Utah one bit.

I really really dislike middle school. I think middle school ruins children. This is the time when hormones are raging and every kid is a brat. Kids are SO mean in middle school. I often joke with my mom that my kids will be home schooled for middle school... this may not be a joke.

I love seeing people do nice things for other people. Kindness warms my heart and there really is not enough of it in the world.

These are little dumb things, but I guess they are just floating around in my brain. I basically just exposed how truly weird I can be. Oh well... maybe weird can be interpreted as funny?

Beautiful Bella. I LOVE YOU

One month ago I held this precious little girl for the last time in this earthly life. Bella passed away one month ago today. I know that I will see her again and she will wrap her sweet little arms around me and give me kisses. I am so grateful for the love of our Savior Jesus Christ and the knowledge of the gospel because it is the only thing that brings me comfort.

~ This is the last picture I took with Bella over July 4th weekend. ~

Bella brought so much love and joy into the lives of so many and her sweet spirit continues to touch so many lives. She showed us how to love and laugh with her great sense of humor even at her young age. Jessie and I lived together while she was pregnant with Bella and our best friendship was pretty much instant. In our hearts, Jessie and I are sisters and I was Bella's Auntie Danielle. Jessie was and continues to be an amazing mommy to Isabella Rose. Jessie is so devoted to Bella, it is absolutely remarkable. Jessie shows Bella more love than anyone can imagine and Bella knows the love of her mama. I love Jessie and Bella tons and tons. Words cannot express how much the both of them mean to me.

The week that Bella passed away was probably the most difficult week of my life and so i can only imagine how unbelievably difficult it was for Jessie as Bella's mother. I cried a lot, but I also smiled when I thought about all the moments that Bella made me smile. Bella will be missed by so many, but we know that she is in heaven and is a celestial daughter of our Heavenly Father. Bella is in a place that is suited for an angel because she is too beautiful to have to play in the mud with the rest of us in this world.

I love you Bella xoxoxo

In Loving Memory of Isabella Rose Brunson

March 7, 2009 - July 13, 2010